to do list May 31, 2008

why is it on somedays it takes everything in me to just unload the dishwasher, but on days like today i do the following without blinking an eye:

-workout
-plant flowers on front porch, back porch, backyard flower bed
-wash car
-oil change
-return shirt to the gap
-grocery shopping
-paint toe nails
-clean bathroom
-make beer bread for tonight’s bonfire

i actually still need to do the last two … waiting for the toes to dry.

i am exhausted … i could easily sit on the couch and stare off into space…or sleep … whichever comes first.  i am not picky today.

edit – add unload/reload dishwasher to list (check, done…)

Ten Thoughts on Whole Living May 25, 2008

This month’s ten thoughts on whole living in Body & Soul.  This is probably the only reason I get this magazine, just for these 10 things to remind me I am not crazy!  And to help put many many things I am sure I blow out of proportion into perspective.

-Look for reasons to get active – and let your inner radiance shine.
-Your attention is like a muscle; it needs to relax in order to reengage.
-See your more difficult moments as opportunities to rise above.
-Health is the manifestation of internal balance.
-Dont miss a chance to get outside and experience the warmth of the season.
-Once you decide to take action, you’ll be surprised by how things fall into place.
-Discover ways to embrace boredom.  Its part of the human condition.
-Your words have a bigger impact than you realize.
-Eating sustainably involves not just what you eat, but also how much.
-Sometimes the expression of love is the most powerful healer of all.

spring cleaning May 2, 2008

its that time of year.  the time where i get lost in cleaning my house.  its also the time to change things up around here.  look for new stuff later this weekend. 

very excited!

how do i feel? February 23, 2008

there are days that are just like the others

then there are these days where you feel like you are on top of your game

then finally, there are these days, which could be interpreted one of two ways: 1. things are going well, and it was the right time, place, people kind of thing; 2. things are not going well, and its just the best word to use to describe the day without offending anyone, including yourself.

this is usually what i think of each and every time i go to the gas station.  weird. 

2nd 2nd date of 2008 February 13, 2008

2nd date on friday night with dinner party guy. 

somewhat excited.  somewhat nervous.  taking mental inventory of my flaws and making sure they are in check.  beating myself up internally for all the mistakes ive made in the past.  i hate this. 

hopefully this will pass before friday night.

kids + cuteness February 9, 2008

i just realized that in most of my posts about my nieces and nephews, they are always cute.  i must sound VERY biased. 

let me tell you i am not.  i think ALL kids are cute.  ALL.  i know of one particular cutie who belongs to the L word person who is freaking adorable with his big blue eyes.  then there is my girlfriend christi and her two kids – the younger one with the longest eyelashes ever!  and her older one says the most unique things.  her observations floor me.

then there is another particular friend who i work with and she has the cutest little girl.  wise little one.  its almost like she is 18 stuck in a 6 year old body. 

the list can go on and on …

if i stare at a child is because i am just amazed (not because i am some freak!).  simply amazed at how they think, what they say or do.  i am amazed at what their little brains are doing. 

if you are having a bad day, spend some time with a child – unless they are your own and they are annoying you at that moment.  it amazes me (what a surprise!) how they can quickly change your mood and help you forget whatever it was you were upset about. 

i am hoping to catch up with megan today.  i talked to her last night – too funny!  sara has a big dance tonight, cant wait to see what she looks like all dressed up! 

i am happy.

I CANT STAND THIS!!!! JANUARY! January 17, 2008

cabin fever has set in big-time!  it is taking everything in me not to pack a bag and head to the airport with warm destination in mind.

i am thinking the only good thing from this cabin fever is that i am purging my house.  i think i have thrown out more crap that i ever imagined i would have.  ive given away even more crap. 

and for the first time in my life, ive been able to be honest with someone, without being petrified of hurting their feelings.  i am scared i did, but not regretful for being honest.  though i think the consequence is that i might not have this person as a friend anymore.  we’ll see.  tomorrow i am approaching the person again.  but not with dreadful news, hopefully we can work it out. 

is going for coffee considered a 2nd date? January 12, 2008

and if so, this is the 1st 2nd date i’ve had in YEARS!

the thursday after christmas i went out with dan.  dan is from the office.  i made specific instructions it was going to be for a couple of drinks.  needless to say, we closed the bar.  didnt expect that to happen. 

so i freaked out then.  we actually work together in the same office.  what are people going to think? why do i feel like a loser?  am i settling?  maybe i am not settling, and this is what it feels like when you meet the one.  …interested, but not???

all i know is that today we will be meeting for coffee or lunch or whathaveyou.  i know that i will have a good time and will laugh.  good, no?

edit – i am the proud owner of an ipod, as you know, and so with that i have itunes on my pc.  so to spice things up regularly i’ll listen to their radio stations.  stations from all over the place – probably even siberia (my next home).  i have found this fabulous paris station that plays all the great hits!  skyradio.  if you have itunes, check it out … under the pop category.

good-bye 2007 January 1, 2008

hello 2008!

seriously, when i took out the trash today (12/31), i was metamorphosing(v. to change strikingly the appearance) the trash bag and the contents of it being all 365 days of 2007.  you know they say out with the old, in with the new.  oh so looking forward to the new.

summary of good/bad of 2007:

good – job
bad – friends

good – australia
bad – men

good – health (yes, it improved)
bad – family

i am not making resolutions this year.  i am just going to down right change the areas of much needed improvement.  clean sweep these areas, starting with the friends.  had a very interesting couple of hours with a friend recently, and the epiphany that followed was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.  and the bottom line of this epiphany is i dont need this crap. 

but what i am going to do is strive for peace this year.  all kinds of it.  want to look back on 2008 and know i made a huge change, feeling the peace in my life. 

peace.

(ps – i think after friends, i might work on my closet.  so much crap, no place for it)

a new twist on the self portrait December 22, 2007

today, while drying my hair, i noticed a curl.  not just one curl, but several.  i have gone 35 – 36 years with poker straight hair.  so this is big-time news!  i have no idea where these came from, is it because i am getting older and the hormones slash genetics are changing? 

(i get my hair from my mother, however, with these new found curls, it looks as if dad has left something behind. )